True Feelings [MPC100X (83B)]
Aug 21, 2022 15:42:53 GMT
Post by Alpha & Beta on Aug 21, 2022 15:42:53 GMT
MPC Name: Check Y/N
MPC Number: 83B
Reward Requested: Bits
Hey Beta, either that or it was Dear Beta I don't exactly know which one I'm supposed to put if I'm honest. I've been feeling pretty down about what happened so the boss, the digimon I'm staying with, told me I should write this and address it to you. Even if I don't end up sending it apparently, it's supposed to make me feel better about what happened, I don't know if that'll actually happen but hey it's worth a shot right?
What happened before at the house, I didn't want you to find out that way. Well if I'm honest I really didn't want you to find out at all about what happened before we met, after hearing about what happened to you and Cici it really wasn't something I was proud of anymore. I didn't get to say much on the matter before we ended up splitting but yes it's true, the same Myotismon that raised me trapped the two of you, I had no idea it was going on and I'd like to think if I did know I would've still done everything to save you. Even if that might not be true.
Originally I went with the two of you because I thought that if I worked together with you I could show him up, show how much stronger I was then him and eventually, I don't even know what I was thinking if I'm honest I just didn't want to be around him anymore and wanted to fight, use the two of you against him. Maybe it was because what I saw I knew was wrong and wanted to fight him, maybe it was just my own selfish reasons for doing things. Either way I went with the two of you and honestly never really regrated it after.
Being with you every day, talking and training together. Originally I hated doing it, I thought you were an idiot if I'm honest and you definitely hit way too hard when we were just supposed to be sparring but slowly I just sorta got used to it, eventually the words I said to just tried to be nice became more genuine. Then you told me about your nightmares, being afraid to sleep because of what Myotismon did to you. It was the first time I had ever seen you scared, the first time I'd ever seen you worried about anything. I realized that you weren't an idiot or anything like that, it was always on your mind you just, didn't want to make you seem weak, Which was something I always wanted of myself if I'm honest that's the whole reason I acted tough around you.
Eventually I just started enjoying myself and the days around you, I guess I started to feel like we were actually brother and sister and I liked it, I liked it a lot actually. You and Cici showed me more kindness that I ever had experienced before and at first I really did just think you were both suckers for doing that, we had never met before after all so I just thought the two of you were like that but against other strangers you two didn't always act the same, guess that made me feel a bit special.
Then Thunderbirdmon attacked, I actually knew him from before I don't know if he recognized me but I felt a fear inside me that I couldn't explain at the time, now I know I was afraid that he was going to tell you who I was, in that moment I let more slip then I intended, and Kazuo and his partner got on my case about it, Weston too I think and I was honestly scared and worried. Then you and Cici did something I never imagined you would, you two defended me. Spoke out against them and made sure that I wasn't upset anymore, no one had ever really done that for me before. I know Cici thought the same but even still she wanted to make sure I wasn't upset.
Dylas came after that, I knew him as well, but he seemed different. Originally when I met him, he was a lot ruder, but he seemed to be trying to show more kindness as well, maybe he was just rude because he was around Myotismon, maybe it was me. I don't know but still it was just another digimon who was at least trying. He and Gihai did do a number on that digimon hunting us after all, she kept saying we were friends despite just meeting, I don't know how friendship works but if it's like that then maybe I'm ok with it.
I've been rambling to avoid this part I know but we did finally meet him, the digimon that aimed to ruin both of our lives and make sure we never get a chance to do anything for ourselves, finding out we were originally one digimon. Then the argument happened, and you hit me, honestly, I don't blame you I probably really deserved that. I know I should've mentioned it sooner, I know I should've told the two of you and gave the same trust that you two gave to me, but I was scared, I was acting tough but deep down I was just some scared brat thinking he could avoid his problems forever.
Honestly, I'm still scared. The idea that the two of us were never meant to exist, that we are just broken halves of the same digimon, the one we thought was our father, it's honestly terrifying and I wonder if you're feeling the same fear? But I don't want to be scared anymore, I've talked to the lead digimon here and I'm going to be fighting, I've been training hard so next time we meet I'll be able to hold my own a bit better. I'm not running from Myotismon or from what I did, I don't know if you can forgive me but even if you don't I'll make sure you can be safe, that we can be safe. I promised you I wouldn't back down, that we'd defeat them together and I'll hold myself to that promise, I'll fight and I won't run away anymore.
I still don't know if I'll send this or not, looking it over I wrote some pretty embarrassing stuff but if by some chance you do read this I just wanna say, I love you Beta. You're my sister and I care about you, took me a while to start but better late than never I suppose. We'll get through this, together. At least I hope we will be, I truly do.
MPC Number: 83B
Reward Requested: Bits
Hey Beta, either that or it was Dear Beta I don't exactly know which one I'm supposed to put if I'm honest. I've been feeling pretty down about what happened so the boss, the digimon I'm staying with, told me I should write this and address it to you. Even if I don't end up sending it apparently, it's supposed to make me feel better about what happened, I don't know if that'll actually happen but hey it's worth a shot right?
What happened before at the house, I didn't want you to find out that way. Well if I'm honest I really didn't want you to find out at all about what happened before we met, after hearing about what happened to you and Cici it really wasn't something I was proud of anymore. I didn't get to say much on the matter before we ended up splitting but yes it's true, the same Myotismon that raised me trapped the two of you, I had no idea it was going on and I'd like to think if I did know I would've still done everything to save you. Even if that might not be true.
Originally I went with the two of you because I thought that if I worked together with you I could show him up, show how much stronger I was then him and eventually, I don't even know what I was thinking if I'm honest I just didn't want to be around him anymore and wanted to fight, use the two of you against him. Maybe it was because what I saw I knew was wrong and wanted to fight him, maybe it was just my own selfish reasons for doing things. Either way I went with the two of you and honestly never really regrated it after.
Being with you every day, talking and training together. Originally I hated doing it, I thought you were an idiot if I'm honest and you definitely hit way too hard when we were just supposed to be sparring but slowly I just sorta got used to it, eventually the words I said to just tried to be nice became more genuine. Then you told me about your nightmares, being afraid to sleep because of what Myotismon did to you. It was the first time I had ever seen you scared, the first time I'd ever seen you worried about anything. I realized that you weren't an idiot or anything like that, it was always on your mind you just, didn't want to make you seem weak, Which was something I always wanted of myself if I'm honest that's the whole reason I acted tough around you.
Eventually I just started enjoying myself and the days around you, I guess I started to feel like we were actually brother and sister and I liked it, I liked it a lot actually. You and Cici showed me more kindness that I ever had experienced before and at first I really did just think you were both suckers for doing that, we had never met before after all so I just thought the two of you were like that but against other strangers you two didn't always act the same, guess that made me feel a bit special.
Then Thunderbirdmon attacked, I actually knew him from before I don't know if he recognized me but I felt a fear inside me that I couldn't explain at the time, now I know I was afraid that he was going to tell you who I was, in that moment I let more slip then I intended, and Kazuo and his partner got on my case about it, Weston too I think and I was honestly scared and worried. Then you and Cici did something I never imagined you would, you two defended me. Spoke out against them and made sure that I wasn't upset anymore, no one had ever really done that for me before. I know Cici thought the same but even still she wanted to make sure I wasn't upset.
Dylas came after that, I knew him as well, but he seemed different. Originally when I met him, he was a lot ruder, but he seemed to be trying to show more kindness as well, maybe he was just rude because he was around Myotismon, maybe it was me. I don't know but still it was just another digimon who was at least trying. He and Gihai did do a number on that digimon hunting us after all, she kept saying we were friends despite just meeting, I don't know how friendship works but if it's like that then maybe I'm ok with it.
I've been rambling to avoid this part I know but we did finally meet him, the digimon that aimed to ruin both of our lives and make sure we never get a chance to do anything for ourselves, finding out we were originally one digimon. Then the argument happened, and you hit me, honestly, I don't blame you I probably really deserved that. I know I should've mentioned it sooner, I know I should've told the two of you and gave the same trust that you two gave to me, but I was scared, I was acting tough but deep down I was just some scared brat thinking he could avoid his problems forever.
Honestly, I'm still scared. The idea that the two of us were never meant to exist, that we are just broken halves of the same digimon, the one we thought was our father, it's honestly terrifying and I wonder if you're feeling the same fear? But I don't want to be scared anymore, I've talked to the lead digimon here and I'm going to be fighting, I've been training hard so next time we meet I'll be able to hold my own a bit better. I'm not running from Myotismon or from what I did, I don't know if you can forgive me but even if you don't I'll make sure you can be safe, that we can be safe. I promised you I wouldn't back down, that we'd defeat them together and I'll hold myself to that promise, I'll fight and I won't run away anymore.
I still don't know if I'll send this or not, looking it over I wrote some pretty embarrassing stuff but if by some chance you do read this I just wanna say, I love you Beta. You're my sister and I care about you, took me a while to start but better late than never I suppose. We'll get through this, together. At least I hope we will be, I truly do.
