Suu Ueno - Partnerless DigiDestined
Nov 1, 2022 19:05:19 GMT
Post by Suu Ueno on Nov 1, 2022 19:05:19 GMT
Name - Suu Ueno 珠羽 上野
Suu is written with kanji 珠 which means pearl and 羽 - wing/feather, while Ueno translates as 上 above and 野 field.
Alias
• Suu-chan - used mostly by nurses and doctors at the Shibuya Hospital.
• Usagicchi - social workers taking care of her love to call her like that.
• The Pale Girl - that's how other patients and passer-byes talk about Suu.
Age - Ten years have passed, though she looks more like she's eight...
Gender - Cis Female
Height - 3'8/112cm
Weight - 43lbs/19.5kg
Alignment - Neutral Good
Birth Date - 1st March
Western Horoscope - Pisces
Birth Place - Downtown Shibuya Hospital
Skills and Talents
• She's an avid reader with a creative mind that loves making up stories and anecdotes. Got some philosophical flare in her, that's for sure. There's no school, and the teacher comes far too rarely, so she's learning about the world through stories on paper and screens.
• To keep her mind busy, she developed an interest in handicrafts. In her free time, she's crocheting and knitting and stitching, and... Whatever she can do. Lately, Suu's focusing on the art of folding paper. Making kanzashi flowers out of ribbons is fun too!
• A keen observer. There were weeks, months when Suu wasn't able to get out of bed, staring through the windows all the time. Be it the park nearby or the hospital corridors, she's very attentive to her surroundings, sometimes reading the room better than adults.
Bag Contents
• Inhaler with too many colorful stickers on it
• Blue satchel with medications and notes describing each of the pills and when and how to take them
• First aid kit
• Hospital handband - it works similarly to the smartwatch, tracking her location, pulse, and temperature. It goes with phone numbers and information about her medical history - she never takes it off
• Ream of small, colorful papers for origami
• Hospital ID and small frog-shaped wallet
Digivice - No idea what it is. But it can't be that weirdly-shaped-thingy that appeared on her nightstand and Nurse Lua confiscated it, right..? It got a small screen and some buttons and it was there when Suu opened her eyes in the morning. It can't be that...
Personality
The weak body and years of hospitalization gave birth to the maturity inside Suu. Lots of her time was spent reflecting and pondering... She's a quiet soul that lives on the side of society, observing, but rarely taking part in anything. She can't exactly join her peers in their activities, most of the time she's stuck in bed or her wheelchair. Her poor health limits her to very little, so her dreams are very simple. Play tag with someone, running on her own two feet. See the sea. Visit Tokyo Tower and take part in festivals. Go to the zoo. It's impossible for someone like her, she accepted it already. That's why she tries to find joy everywhere else - often getting excited by things others would call trivial and unimportant. Suu is very mature for her age, to the point of baffling adults, but at times she can appear very childish - especially when she clearly shows how much she enjoys playing or talking with others. She is in a way starved for affection and interaction with others, and a simple chat with someone friendly is enough to make her day... Yet, looking at her from the side - she's just a quiet, melancholic, and timid girl, hiding behind a stash of books.
Getting to know her takes time. Suu's shy and soft-spoken, polite, and socially anxious to the point of tears. Stuck in the hospital, she has very little experience with socialization, often saying something odd or behaving weirdly in others' eyes. It doesn't help that she's pretty bashful and prone to getting nervous in any situation. Strangers can be scary... Outsiders speaking to her out of nowhere and loud voices can easily trigger stuttering and tears. Startled, she could start crying or hide her face behind her hair or book - she's not a stranger to panic attacks. She likes talking with people, but she's really bad at it. At the slightest remark or a sign of annoyance she backs off, apologizing, convinced that she made someone uncomfortable with her presence. Low confidence is to blame, but that's tied deeply to her health condition and isn't changing anytime soon. Suu's sweet temper and gentle personality mask the burden of acknowledging her fate. This small girl has been through a lot, and although she still doesn't understand everything, even if she's confused by the actions and words of others, she does not want to show any more weakness than she has to. Maybe that's strength, Maybe it's not. Who knows?
Deep down, Suu is just a lonely little kid. She wishes for someone to be by her side, while at the same time not believing that she's worthy of attention and care. If she were, she wouldn't be left alone... She can't burden anyone with what's happening to her, can she..? Besides - if she's going to die, why should she make friends, only for them to be hurt once she's gone? That's not right. Despite thinking that it would be a selfish decision, Suu yearns for someone to bond with - only to later feel bad about her hopes. She looks for company, but in a fit of panic pushes them away, not wanting to be a burden. Sometimes she wishes that she could disappear. There's a heart of gold and kind morality inside her, yet it twists when applied to her own issues - she's convinced that she is undeserving of many, many things.
Appearance
Suu's frail, and it's no joke. A stronger breeze could knock her out and even a light fever could be deadly for her weakened body. Asthma, epilepsy, weak immune system, heart condition - it all weighs on the development of her body, making her weaker, smaller, and thinner than children her age. The long scar above her sternum marks the place where she was operated on to ease the damaged ventricles of her heart. It shouldn't be normal for a ten-year-old child to be conscious about the scars on her wrists and forearms from the unending rounds of IV drips, but it is... The smaller and bigger cuts from all the procedures left marks all over her - even tiny scratch needs a lot of time to heal. The paleness of her skin is undertoned by a bluish tint - it's so delicate that all the veins are clearly visible. Some say she seems fragile like a doll made of porcelain as if she's going to crack and break if one were to hold her hand too strongly.
Suu's thin, not slim. Her petite frame is boney, lacking both muscles and fat - she's constantly cold, often wrapping herself in blankets and sweaters. At rare times when she feels strong enough to walk, her steps are uneven and careful, her gestures awkward, betraying that she's not the master of her own body. To be honest, her organism lacks many things - the colorlessness of her skin and hair is caused both by her illnesses and the small quantity of pigment. One of many issues that blend into the background - her body is too occupied with fighting everything else to be bothered to make some melanin. Her white, shoulder-long hair is thin and delicate. It's common for Suu to have some of her nails wrapped with colorful band-aids, as they are brittle and break easily. At all times she had sensors glued to her chest, which looks like some futuristic device implanted above her heart.
All in all, she's small and scaringly light. Nurses are worried because she's growing, but she doesn't seem to gain any weight. Her face is heart-shaped, with pretty, yet sunken features. Suu often smiles, but it's a shy, soft, unsure smile as if she's not convinced that she should show any expressions at all. The pair of gray eyes got a bit of heterochromia - her left eye is visibly darker than the other. The aura surrounding the girl is full of melancholy, reflections, and just a dash of self-loathing. There's warm brightness in her eyes, but deep at the bottom of her gaze, there's something gloomy and heavy... Ready to give up. The contrasting nature of life and death.
Personal History
Gods of misfortune surely had their eyes on Suu even before she was born. They were scheming, plotting, and creating a living hell for an innocent child... Because what else would justify her fate? Her birth wasn't a celebration of joy and creation, no. It was sulled by information that she would soon pass away, even before she would reach the first milestone of her life. Lots of health issues befallen this tiny body in her mother's womb - a congenital heart defect gave her little chance to survive infancy. Her first breath was ragged and shallow because asthma was reducing the capacity of her lungs. The nonexistent immune system couldn't stop the bacterial endocarditis, an infection that after the first hours of her life spread all over the lining of her heart... And Suu's quiet cries were full of pain, continuing for hours.
Her family abandoned her soon after she was born. In her time of need - no one was there. They dumped their helpless, prematurely born child at the hospital, leaving only a note saying We're sorry, but we're not strong enough to watch her die. Who could blame them? The diagnosis was cruel and left little to hope for, and perhaps it was too much for her parents to bear. There is no human alive determined enough to watch their children fade away without fear or pain. The Ueno family left and never returned. They cut all contact, moving out of the area as if they were already running away from their guilt... Maybe that was for the better? Though it marked Suu's life greatly with loneliness and the grim thought of being undeserving of care. If she'd be healthy, she should be worth loving, right..? The hospital staff and social workers are watching after her because it's their work. If only she'd been better, maybe her parents would have never left. If only... There's not much worth in a broken and dying child.
Despite her weak constitution and road paved with difficulties, Suu was fighting. Oh, was she a fighter... She overcome the infection and survived infancy, even if her growth was slow compared to her peers - yet the little girl survived everything so far. No matter how much the procedures hurt and how bad it felt to lay alone in an empty room, listening to the hum of the machine connected to her heart, she made it through. Doctors gave her two, or three years at most after she survived her first months, but the limit was stretched each time she lived through the assigned deadline. That was a miracle, but she could only get so far before her body would start to shut down. Suu still was fighting - but with time it was getting more and more difficult for her to find the resolve to oppose her fate.
And thus she already reached her tenth birthday, living in the hospital, still needing around-the-clock care and hospitalization. She saw people come and go... The social workers used to come every day to keep her company, sometimes taking her for a stroll around Shibuya or nearby parks, but as she grew, their visits were less frequent. The hospital contacted a nearby school and a teacher was assigned to tutor her weekly. Everyone was nice to her - but that was it. She was just a girl that was going to die. Was their sympathy caused by that, or by any chance they actually liked talking to her? Suu couldn't tell the difference, but she got used to the loneliness, regardless of how burdening it was. The mechanical murmur of machines and the beeping of the sensors fixed to her chest and head were her lullabies. The more time passed the more she began to understand her own condition and the whispers around her.
There were good days when she was able to walk slowly, taking careful steps to stroll towards the hospital cafeteria on her own and ask for some milk tea. But, more often, there were weeks and months when Suu was stuck in a wheelchair, feeling weak... The worst were the days when she couldn't leave the hospital bed, having little to no energy to even talk or look outside the window. Everyone around her knew that she will die one day, sooner or later.
Perhaps the only thing left for her to do is to wait.
Other
• Her daily outfit consists of a blue hospital gown, sweater, hand warmers, and colorful socks. On rare occasions when she's out, she usually wears plain, simple clothes - and her favorite indigo blanket with yellow stars sewn to it.
• Since she was abandoned by her parents Suu's technically up for adoption. The small print is that her legal guardians will be burdened by the financial expenses of her treatment, so no doubt that there's not a single person interested.
• Social workers have been taking good care of her since she remembered, but she's aware that she's not the only person receiving their help. Some have it worse, so she's not going to say anything if a week or two goes by without a visit.
• Suu loves stickers. It started with the classic Brave Patient! sticker on the side of her bed and ended with a tiny obsession. She'd put them on any possible surface she can reach, and she will put a lot of them.
• Her favorite drink is milk tea.
• Her favorite dish are steamed buns with sweet bean paste.
• She doesn't dislike any food or drinks in particular, she simply has a very small appetite and doesn't eat a lot. Too much in her belly makes her nauseous and she's on diet made of easily digested meals.
• Out of every book she read so far, she likes the most fairy tales and adventure novels. Like Peter Pan or Puss in the Boots.
• Despite loving animals, she's a bit scared of them. She cannot protect herself or attempt to run away in a wheelchair, so she gets nervous when she sees bigger ones, like dangerously looking dogs.
• When anxious, she stutters and blushes up to the tips of her ears.
• She can't lie. Even if her life depends on it.
