MPC 63B + 63X[41B] - An Interview (II)
Jun 5, 2019 13:57:48 GMT
Post by ryouta on Jun 5, 2019 13:57:48 GMT
Well what do you know, here we are again in a late night interview by yours truly. Thank you very much for watching the show. Tonight, our guest is one of the more special person, one that has gone through several different iteration because the silly phasing of yours truly... Noguchi Ryouta and Valt!
"Well, we saw this for the first time, but nice to meet you I guess." Valt started
Oh you were somewhere in the backstage for the interview?
"Pretty curious about it so we asked if we're allowed to watch the segment or something like that, they said yes, so hey, why not?" Ryouta resumed this time. He quickly made himself comfortable on the chair. Come to think of it, Ryouta, many people know that you have amnesia, can you tell us the extent of it? Just a brief overview would be enough. I mean, it looked like you're experienced being interviewed or something.
"Ah, not... really the case. I guess I'm just the type that usually more chill when it comes to public talking... Granted, actually I'm still very nervous, ahaha!
So... where to start... What I remembered were somewhere when I was like... 15? Boy that was three years ago... Everything up til then are very very very clear. I was this delinquent-ish... well, I don't want to be called a delinquent honestly. I just want to set things right. Well, a delinquent probably is also not wrong, considering that I did used a lot of force do the talking. Anyway, I was this guy who hates bullies... or better said I just hate someone who misused their power. I hate... that sort of world where the strongest is the top dog and they want to pressure the weaker ones to submit to them."
Even though sometimes it's natural order of nature?
"Yeah, I mean, I do understand it's natural order of the nature, but even so I feel if you... have to revert to natural order of nature in primitive way, then what's the use of human living in society? Of course saying that is kind of hypocrite. I understand that now that I'm older. Back then, I always fancy myself as ally of justice, but in the end I used force... justice in its primal nature of 'eye for an eye'. I understand it's wrong, but back then I denied it strongly. I denied it, and justified that if people used force, then I'm also justified to use force."
And it gets you into trouble a lot.
Ryouta's expression twisted into an awkward smile. "To be honest, my track record aren't great at all. Ever since middle school, my image is this guy who would punch you if you see me funny. Well, that's not right at all. I mostly just ignored anyone who doesn't make me feel like they would bully anyone. If the class rep needed anything from me, I'm polite about it, but as you know, delinquent's image in... school in Japan, like common sense, is that they're to be avoided. They're that tack that stuck out it in negative way. I'm that tack, and people avoid me. To be honest I'm not blaming them... or maybe, I'm just that stuck up in my own world to even notice their fear."
And how is the present you compared to that old you? How does it feel when you woke up?
"Ah..." Ryouta looked pensive for a moment, looking for the right word. "Honestly? Imagine you're this... thin ass 15 years old... alright, not so thin ass. I still got visible abs and biceps... and then you woke up and suddenly you're... what, 17.5? And in body as huge as Arnold Schwarzenegger in his prime. Wouldn't you like wonder if you... got juiced in your slumber or 'holy cow, who hijacked my body?'"
The audience laughed at that, even I cannot help but to snort at it. Alright, I'm sorry about that.
"No no that's fine, I'm glad to make you laugh instead of making you guys scared or something like that."
You know, when you get to know you, you're actually friendly. Really friendly even. I think that sort of duality kind of make you popular after you dropped the mantle of the old Ryouta?
"Oh no, I... well, actually after I returned from the hospital from the two months coma and told everyone that my memory for two years are fuzzy at best, I decided to go out and socialize more. Talking with classmates, making some friends, that sort... well, I guess it helped that one day when a girl in my group messed up our cooking assignment. I quickly took over and we managed to salvage it and even got praise from the teacher. I guess since that moment everyone warmed up pretty quickly to me, starting from my classmates. When you're no longer so hellbent on your personal revenge, or hating the world, you could finally appreciate the beauty around you. I felt the same, and honestly, I... I do have some regret of not remembering a lot, but it definitely taught me something new, and I'll treasure that."
That's a wise word. Valt, what do you feel when your Aniki changed this drastically?
"Honestly? I prefer that a lot more. As you know, Digital World is harsh... and... we're doubly fucked on that. Our first adventure was not that bad, but honestly, we encountered far more danger and death than we liked... whether we caused it, or whether we indirectly caused it, or whether we only saw and can do nothing about it. Back in the past, I'm Ryu the Dracomon, a really naive Digimon. Aniki felt that he have to protect that innocence. He ended up... taking too much burden on that. Cold, almost robotic, he got some form of PTSD I think. So I feel this sort of drastic change is absolutely welcomed."
Even so, if it's in cost of forgetting you?
"Ah that's another matter altogether. Alright that's unpleasant. I'm sure Aniki doesn't wnat to forgot about me either, but you can blame that Digimon who erased our bond and all his Digital World memories... But even then, I feel some traumas are best forgotten. I know he said otherwise, but... Look I'm in his side. He supported me back then as my aniki, but now I just want to be partner who he can share his burden with. This time around, I'll be the one who supported him as the more experienced one."
So, tell me what do you think about your difference as Vmon, Valt. Do you love it? Do you hate it?
"It's not that I hate my old self per se... I mean, my old self is like my kid self. I'm growing, and I'm... Well I guess I'm not as cute now, hah! I mean, I always try to be more mentally supportive like before, but even then... I think my image is no longer that listener who would listen to all of my friend's problem. My image now is a trainer, and I have embraced that role."
So you got like... two graduates, and three students, what do you feel about that?
"I mean I feel great! That means I'm impacting their lives enough for them to trust me to train them! To be honest when I trained someone, I just really want them to shine, that's all... and for them to never be on crazy situations like ours. If they do, however, I hope my training served them well. i want my friends to stay alive and never die, the humans especially. They're far more brittle. Message for you my human friends: I'm not telling you to be Rambo or John Wick, but please, engage battle cautiously. Leave the battling to Digimons, either the form or the Digimons themselves. If you're not spirit user then your place is on the back. Don't carelessly approach Digimon's battle, Don't carelessly get caught in Digimon's line of sight either. Your role is to survive, for both of you and your Digimon. Always remember your family, always remember who hold you dear. Don't be Chad Thundercock or I'll bust your nuts in."
That sounds very apt, Valt.
"Well it is, and they better listen. I don't want to carry any of my friend's corpse, much less of my own disciples. That's why I'll put on some meat on your body. This is my tough love for you my friends. "
So, let's talk about the future. What's your goal? Anything you want to do? Ryouta, do you want to go first?
"That's what I'm most afraid of at the moment. Honestly, this might be what my old self felt too, but... Digital World is vastly more... exciting to teenager's heart than real world. In Digital World, you can be a hero, a hero that in real world would make you dragged to some bullshit... That honestly would be far more interesting to teens in general, but for me, that's not the case. Although I'm... fresh so to say, Valt is not. Valt is experienced, and while being Digimon means you're more used to this, I imagined it and put myself on his shoes... I'd want some stability. Digital World isn't really the stability that I'm looking for."
So you mean you'll stay in real world still?
"Oh yeah definitely. I'll probably keep my dual life until the end of my time, hah hah! But even then, I'd love a job where I can just get my stability in certain way. Perhaps opening another cafe are not so bad."
What about a restaurant?
"Restaurant sounds nice, but it... kinda feel stressing? I guess, I'd love to have a restaurant of my own."
Trying to find your path is admirable. How about trying to see if you like opening a restaurant by opening a small food trailer somewhere near Rosewood?
"Oooh, that sounds great too. I think I'll do that."
"Well, as for me, my goal in life is just to find someone who I can love I guess. That's pretty hard considering I'm like... very demisexual? I do have interest in dragons though. Dragons are easier to me to romance than other species. No idea why, probably just because they're more aligned with me. Hmmm... another thing that I want is to probably open my own training grounds, similar to Spartan Training Grounds. Would love that... Oh I think that can be my project or something?"
That gonna be darn big.
"Oh fo sho! Well, I'll ask my three other disciple if they want that, heh heh~"
Looks like you two got your map kind of planned out. For now, is there any regret or messages to people that you want people to hear?
"Mmmm, as for me, I'd like to say this... When you're so deep in your ideal you should probably pull yourself out. I have been drunk in my look to enact what I feel was just. I took the matter to my own hand, and it only backfired to me because it's not my capacity to do so. I do have the capability, but I did it in the wrong way. Remember about those who are worried about you. Listen to their words well. Make sure that you look at them, and don't ignore them. They're those who truly think for your well being.
Don't get angered so fast, talk things out. Bullies are detestable, yeah, but what you can solve without violence is better than one that you can solve with. Of course pacifism isn't the answer to all question, but please at least listen to one another before jumping to conclusion. Don't take matter into your own hands if you have friends that can help you. Think about their feeling."
"I feel you represent justice better now, Aniki"
"Heh, you think? What about you?"
"I said my parts, but... another is... Please make sure to take care of yourself. Dig yourself out from any self righteousness. If you believe you're right, then yeah you're right, but remember, that's only for yourself. There are always a repercussion no matter whether your action is good or bad. Just remember that if you regret it, make effort to change. Don't just say 'I regret it' and stop right there. It's fine to regret, but never wallow. Step forward, and greet new day with a smile."
Alright, thank you Ryouta and Valt! Next time, we'll return with another character to interview. Do you hae any request? Do tell if you do!.
"Well, we saw this for the first time, but nice to meet you I guess." Valt started
Oh you were somewhere in the backstage for the interview?
"Pretty curious about it so we asked if we're allowed to watch the segment or something like that, they said yes, so hey, why not?" Ryouta resumed this time. He quickly made himself comfortable on the chair. Come to think of it, Ryouta, many people know that you have amnesia, can you tell us the extent of it? Just a brief overview would be enough. I mean, it looked like you're experienced being interviewed or something.
"Ah, not... really the case. I guess I'm just the type that usually more chill when it comes to public talking... Granted, actually I'm still very nervous, ahaha!
So... where to start... What I remembered were somewhere when I was like... 15? Boy that was three years ago... Everything up til then are very very very clear. I was this delinquent-ish... well, I don't want to be called a delinquent honestly. I just want to set things right. Well, a delinquent probably is also not wrong, considering that I did used a lot of force do the talking. Anyway, I was this guy who hates bullies... or better said I just hate someone who misused their power. I hate... that sort of world where the strongest is the top dog and they want to pressure the weaker ones to submit to them."
Even though sometimes it's natural order of nature?
"Yeah, I mean, I do understand it's natural order of the nature, but even so I feel if you... have to revert to natural order of nature in primitive way, then what's the use of human living in society? Of course saying that is kind of hypocrite. I understand that now that I'm older. Back then, I always fancy myself as ally of justice, but in the end I used force... justice in its primal nature of 'eye for an eye'. I understand it's wrong, but back then I denied it strongly. I denied it, and justified that if people used force, then I'm also justified to use force."
And it gets you into trouble a lot.
Ryouta's expression twisted into an awkward smile. "To be honest, my track record aren't great at all. Ever since middle school, my image is this guy who would punch you if you see me funny. Well, that's not right at all. I mostly just ignored anyone who doesn't make me feel like they would bully anyone. If the class rep needed anything from me, I'm polite about it, but as you know, delinquent's image in... school in Japan, like common sense, is that they're to be avoided. They're that tack that stuck out it in negative way. I'm that tack, and people avoid me. To be honest I'm not blaming them... or maybe, I'm just that stuck up in my own world to even notice their fear."
And how is the present you compared to that old you? How does it feel when you woke up?
"Ah..." Ryouta looked pensive for a moment, looking for the right word. "Honestly? Imagine you're this... thin ass 15 years old... alright, not so thin ass. I still got visible abs and biceps... and then you woke up and suddenly you're... what, 17.5? And in body as huge as Arnold Schwarzenegger in his prime. Wouldn't you like wonder if you... got juiced in your slumber or 'holy cow, who hijacked my body?'"
The audience laughed at that, even I cannot help but to snort at it. Alright, I'm sorry about that.
"No no that's fine, I'm glad to make you laugh instead of making you guys scared or something like that."
You know, when you get to know you, you're actually friendly. Really friendly even. I think that sort of duality kind of make you popular after you dropped the mantle of the old Ryouta?
"Oh no, I... well, actually after I returned from the hospital from the two months coma and told everyone that my memory for two years are fuzzy at best, I decided to go out and socialize more. Talking with classmates, making some friends, that sort... well, I guess it helped that one day when a girl in my group messed up our cooking assignment. I quickly took over and we managed to salvage it and even got praise from the teacher. I guess since that moment everyone warmed up pretty quickly to me, starting from my classmates. When you're no longer so hellbent on your personal revenge, or hating the world, you could finally appreciate the beauty around you. I felt the same, and honestly, I... I do have some regret of not remembering a lot, but it definitely taught me something new, and I'll treasure that."
That's a wise word. Valt, what do you feel when your Aniki changed this drastically?
"Honestly? I prefer that a lot more. As you know, Digital World is harsh... and... we're doubly fucked on that. Our first adventure was not that bad, but honestly, we encountered far more danger and death than we liked... whether we caused it, or whether we indirectly caused it, or whether we only saw and can do nothing about it. Back in the past, I'm Ryu the Dracomon, a really naive Digimon. Aniki felt that he have to protect that innocence. He ended up... taking too much burden on that. Cold, almost robotic, he got some form of PTSD I think. So I feel this sort of drastic change is absolutely welcomed."
Even so, if it's in cost of forgetting you?
"Ah that's another matter altogether. Alright that's unpleasant. I'm sure Aniki doesn't wnat to forgot about me either, but you can blame that Digimon who erased our bond and all his Digital World memories... But even then, I feel some traumas are best forgotten. I know he said otherwise, but... Look I'm in his side. He supported me back then as my aniki, but now I just want to be partner who he can share his burden with. This time around, I'll be the one who supported him as the more experienced one."
So, tell me what do you think about your difference as Vmon, Valt. Do you love it? Do you hate it?
"It's not that I hate my old self per se... I mean, my old self is like my kid self. I'm growing, and I'm... Well I guess I'm not as cute now, hah! I mean, I always try to be more mentally supportive like before, but even then... I think my image is no longer that listener who would listen to all of my friend's problem. My image now is a trainer, and I have embraced that role."
So you got like... two graduates, and three students, what do you feel about that?
"I mean I feel great! That means I'm impacting their lives enough for them to trust me to train them! To be honest when I trained someone, I just really want them to shine, that's all... and for them to never be on crazy situations like ours. If they do, however, I hope my training served them well. i want my friends to stay alive and never die, the humans especially. They're far more brittle. Message for you my human friends: I'm not telling you to be Rambo or John Wick, but please, engage battle cautiously. Leave the battling to Digimons, either the form or the Digimons themselves. If you're not spirit user then your place is on the back. Don't carelessly approach Digimon's battle, Don't carelessly get caught in Digimon's line of sight either. Your role is to survive, for both of you and your Digimon. Always remember your family, always remember who hold you dear. Don't be Chad Thundercock or I'll bust your nuts in."
That sounds very apt, Valt.
"Well it is, and they better listen. I don't want to carry any of my friend's corpse, much less of my own disciples. That's why I'll put on some meat on your body. This is my tough love for you my friends. "
So, let's talk about the future. What's your goal? Anything you want to do? Ryouta, do you want to go first?
"That's what I'm most afraid of at the moment. Honestly, this might be what my old self felt too, but... Digital World is vastly more... exciting to teenager's heart than real world. In Digital World, you can be a hero, a hero that in real world would make you dragged to some bullshit... That honestly would be far more interesting to teens in general, but for me, that's not the case. Although I'm... fresh so to say, Valt is not. Valt is experienced, and while being Digimon means you're more used to this, I imagined it and put myself on his shoes... I'd want some stability. Digital World isn't really the stability that I'm looking for."
So you mean you'll stay in real world still?
"Oh yeah definitely. I'll probably keep my dual life until the end of my time, hah hah! But even then, I'd love a job where I can just get my stability in certain way. Perhaps opening another cafe are not so bad."
What about a restaurant?
"Restaurant sounds nice, but it... kinda feel stressing? I guess, I'd love to have a restaurant of my own."
Trying to find your path is admirable. How about trying to see if you like opening a restaurant by opening a small food trailer somewhere near Rosewood?
"Oooh, that sounds great too. I think I'll do that."
"Well, as for me, my goal in life is just to find someone who I can love I guess. That's pretty hard considering I'm like... very demisexual? I do have interest in dragons though. Dragons are easier to me to romance than other species. No idea why, probably just because they're more aligned with me. Hmmm... another thing that I want is to probably open my own training grounds, similar to Spartan Training Grounds. Would love that... Oh I think that can be my project or something?"
That gonna be darn big.
"Oh fo sho! Well, I'll ask my three other disciple if they want that, heh heh~"
Looks like you two got your map kind of planned out. For now, is there any regret or messages to people that you want people to hear?
"Mmmm, as for me, I'd like to say this... When you're so deep in your ideal you should probably pull yourself out. I have been drunk in my look to enact what I feel was just. I took the matter to my own hand, and it only backfired to me because it's not my capacity to do so. I do have the capability, but I did it in the wrong way. Remember about those who are worried about you. Listen to their words well. Make sure that you look at them, and don't ignore them. They're those who truly think for your well being.
Don't get angered so fast, talk things out. Bullies are detestable, yeah, but what you can solve without violence is better than one that you can solve with. Of course pacifism isn't the answer to all question, but please at least listen to one another before jumping to conclusion. Don't take matter into your own hands if you have friends that can help you. Think about their feeling."
"I feel you represent justice better now, Aniki"
"Heh, you think? What about you?"
"I said my parts, but... another is... Please make sure to take care of yourself. Dig yourself out from any self righteousness. If you believe you're right, then yeah you're right, but remember, that's only for yourself. There are always a repercussion no matter whether your action is good or bad. Just remember that if you regret it, make effort to change. Don't just say 'I regret it' and stop right there. It's fine to regret, but never wallow. Step forward, and greet new day with a smile."
Alright, thank you Ryouta and Valt! Next time, we'll return with another character to interview. Do you hae any request? Do tell if you do!.
