MPC 63B + 63X[41B] - An Interview (III)
Jun 16, 2019 20:37:08 GMT
Post by yuuki on Jun 16, 2019 20:37:08 GMT
Welcome to another show of the interview with certain characters, mine specifically. I wanted to save the best for the last, but I suddenly noticed, hey, why not now? There are a lot of other characters in queue, and you happened to be one of the most... developed I guess?
"Well thank you, I take pride in that, but I guess it's also thanks to my dear husband Owen and the kids! For better or worse though... I hope they doesn't watch this at all..."
And why is that, Hikaru?
"I know you, we have been interviewed for like... several times? Well, that's a weird thing to say... But either way, I'm sure there are loaded questions here or somewhere, you know how it goes. Either that or one that would break this Dorupapa's heart, you know. I know you, I know your brand of evil."
Dayum, that might be the harshest thing my character ever told me! Anyway, leaving that aside, we've been breaking fourth wall constantly, and Yuuki here is being left behind...
"Don't mind me, I think I can handle it."
Oooh, cool as always. Either way, let's begin with the questioning. Yuuki, tell us how you feel about being a leader, not just leader of your group, but leader of KIZNA.
"...How to say... I guess, I still can't believe there are quite number of interest in KIZNA. At first we're just a normal team in a bar in Terminus, and suddenly we're... evolving to the next stage. It's almost so surreal. I'm not really that good at leading or communicating. I still think by nature I'm someone who lacks eloquence and charm, but I'm blessed with various allies that I can trust. I hope that... I acted well enough as a leader.
To be honest, despite so, I still feel KIZNA is better suited as a team rather than an organization. We designed our 'home' to be more of a home than a base too. I mean, the front is like the home, the back is the office... it does sounds weird, but to be honest the setting of the building is like that to begin with. So I guess... well, there you have it?"
Even then, what causes you to decide to segregate KIZNA between Cadre... Gloria was it? And the normal members?
"KIZNA in itself was made from close friends. We picked our members from our personal circle of friends, and I think this will be the case until the end. People will have to say 'aye' to recruitment of Cadre before one can be admitted into rank of Cadre. This is to ensure that our elites can work together strongly. Usually when it comes to teams, there are cases where people ended up hating one another, or being too much of a solitary unit to work together in tight knit... we wanted to minimize this, so I decided that a segregation is needed...
As much as we wanted to keep KIZNA as normal tightly knit, we also can't help but fill the need to expand. We want KIZNA to be beyond just a team of tight knit researcher, archeologist and adventuring friends. We want KIZNA to be strong enough to be declared a force that can sway people's opinion, to be team strong enough for us to protect our beloved Ys just by our presence alone..."
"That, and if we want to explore more of the Digital World we need more manpower. We need to dig more of the past iteration of Digital World, and we need to unearth a lot of mystery in this world. Thus, we need people who would love to work with us, to be part of KIZNA."
What would you say in this case to people who feel you're doing nepotism?
"I won't deny that we're picking cadres in base of nepotism, but even then, Cadres are nothing but mere title without people who helped us in the field. We're just the brain of the operatives. The unsung heroes in the field are those who works for KIZNA's ideal. And it's not like you can't fall out or get in the favor based on how well you performed... all in all this is how the organization I envisioned came to be."
Alright then, less personal question, what do you think changed ever since you hold the seat of KIZNA's leader?
"That's still personal you know?"
Ach, your snark sounded so much like Hikaru's at the moment! Either way please answer.
"I... I frankly still know nothing to be honest. Why are we here, why are we holding this much power, what is our mission... I have no idea. Who chose us, who made us partnered... all of that... there are still a lot of thing that I have no idea of and it frustrates me, but... I have a partner who I can trust."
"Aw, you're making me blush Yuuki!"
"That's why I think I can face the future with certainty that even though it'll be stormy, I have my partner with me."
Alright so, Hikaru... how are you doing?
"Good, thanks for asking. But I don't think that's exactly what you meant right?"
You caught on quick. So tell me, from the incomplete Digimon you are, dead for the first time then losing your power for the first time, deleted... and then backupped... how does it feel actually?
"The backup part was honestly weird, but I guess that's true that we're sort of backupped. How does that works I wonder? No idea, but either way, I'm here, I've returned... well... to be honest I only can count this as a miracle. But even then, I'm sure there are people who are traumatized with my disappearance. I only can apologize to them... And that's why I'm trying my best to take it easy. Death is... fearsome indeed, but there are nothing more fearsome than disappointing those that you love."
...Speaking of that, you're a father now, so what do you think of being a father?
"I've been a father for a long time now that I think of it... at least a year and so, which means seven years Digital World at the very least? It's honestly a journey that I find to be very special. At first I thought I just wanted adventure with Yuuki... but just... that, it felt a bit of monotonic you know? Not that it's bad and all but if you want to go on adventure with a friend, 'fun' must be there... unfortunately as we face dangers upon dangers, we slowly become jaded...
The presence of kids honestly made me felt like I got my sanity back. I can raise them up, I can train them my skills, I can guide them in this life, and eventually when I'm ready to call it quits, they would visit me from times to times, It's like... I'm making such strong bonds, and I love that. Being surrounded by my kids made me feel happy you know? As... a Digimon who borns fragmented, it felt like every single bonds that I made are like my treasure."
I see, so... what do you feel about the amnesia, is it better for Yuuki to be amnesic after all?
Looks like the Dorumon does not really ready to answer that question, but... Yuuki instead the one who answered it.
"There are things that you didn't notice how beautiful it is when you have a certain memory... and there are things sweeter when you experience it for the first time. Certainly, losing all my memories of Digital World has completely gone... it... probably was for the best. I have no idea what sort of adventure I had back then... I have no idea what sort of power I have... but even then, I feel like taking this in relaxing way is better... I got to made KIZNA because I believe in this pacifism route after all. The old Itou Yuuki probably isn't like this... and that's fine."
And so, if there is an incident where you somehow got your memory back, what do you think would happened?
"...Well, some things may change, but I believe I won't really change all that much... I... know that I'm not exactly the cleanist person around... and that's fine. If there is a sin, then I have to face it. No matter how bad, no matter how hard... we'll face it when it becomes problem. But for now, I'm enjoying this world's mystery in geeky way, and I'm completely fine with it, heh~"
"...Well, I guess he's really doing great so that's fine!" Hikaru quipped.
Right, so... returning back to the question... Hikaru, what do you fear in this life the most now?
"...Failing my kids, definitely. I failed Logy once by failing to come home for... years, on his side? That was a bit too much. That and also failing my own husband... Yeah... never again. I don't want that to happen again. It's already hard enough once... and if you ask me if I ever want to repeat that the second time, no. I don't want that. I.. I'm glad to be myself, thank you."
Does that... includes a recent problem?
"...Ah, you must meant Hilda..." Hikaru looked really... saddened. "...You see, I wanted to be there for Hilda, but everytime she... snapped at me, it felt like I failed her as a father. I... I have no idea how to act in front of her, really. Everytime I saw her, I felt half of my heart sunk. I felt.... I felt as if I completely failed all sort of checks as her father... How to say... everytime I tried my best to take care of her, it's met with hostility. When I try to ask her what's wrong, she kinda snapped... I... I think I messed up big time... so it's hard to face her."
But even then, do you love her?
"Isn't that obvious? There are no true father who does not love his children. We might not see eye to eye, but I really want to be able to communicate with her like before again. I was born with disability, invisible one, but it's a disability indeed. Perry born with one, and it's shown... I decided to treat her like how I always treat the rest, probably with a bit more coddling... but at the same time, I have no idea how it felt like for someone who was normal... ending up being incomplete. I guess that's why we can't see eye to eye... And honestly, I feel that part is my weakness. But even then, as a father, I'd like to tackle this problem eventually."
I see, that's admirable. Well, then, anything you would like to say to the audiences?
"Hmmm, lesseee... first of all, thank you for listening... If you have any sort of problem, remember that you're not alone I think. Sometimes you just need to talk to someone to actually clear your mind. You might say 'talking doesn't really solve anything', but probably all that you need is for someone to listen to you... and that's not wrong at all. But don't forget that you have to tackle your problem otherwise the problem will still persist. I'll do that with Hilda eventually, so wish me well."
And Yuuki?
"There are a lot of thing that I want to address, but basically, I'm still inexperienced, and even as a leader I'm a bit half baked. I'm not sure if the authority has gotten to my head or not but I hope my fellow members and friends can correct any of my behavior when it gone wrong. I might be a bit awkward, but it doesn't mean that I'm not up for criticism. Either way, I hope I could be a leader that you all can be proud of."
Well with that, thank you you two, hope that we can do this again sometime in the future!
"Well thank you, I take pride in that, but I guess it's also thanks to my dear husband Owen and the kids! For better or worse though... I hope they doesn't watch this at all..."
And why is that, Hikaru?
"I know you, we have been interviewed for like... several times? Well, that's a weird thing to say... But either way, I'm sure there are loaded questions here or somewhere, you know how it goes. Either that or one that would break this Dorupapa's heart, you know. I know you, I know your brand of evil."
Dayum, that might be the harshest thing my character ever told me! Anyway, leaving that aside, we've been breaking fourth wall constantly, and Yuuki here is being left behind...
"Don't mind me, I think I can handle it."
Oooh, cool as always. Either way, let's begin with the questioning. Yuuki, tell us how you feel about being a leader, not just leader of your group, but leader of KIZNA.
"...How to say... I guess, I still can't believe there are quite number of interest in KIZNA. At first we're just a normal team in a bar in Terminus, and suddenly we're... evolving to the next stage. It's almost so surreal. I'm not really that good at leading or communicating. I still think by nature I'm someone who lacks eloquence and charm, but I'm blessed with various allies that I can trust. I hope that... I acted well enough as a leader.
To be honest, despite so, I still feel KIZNA is better suited as a team rather than an organization. We designed our 'home' to be more of a home than a base too. I mean, the front is like the home, the back is the office... it does sounds weird, but to be honest the setting of the building is like that to begin with. So I guess... well, there you have it?"
Even then, what causes you to decide to segregate KIZNA between Cadre... Gloria was it? And the normal members?
"KIZNA in itself was made from close friends. We picked our members from our personal circle of friends, and I think this will be the case until the end. People will have to say 'aye' to recruitment of Cadre before one can be admitted into rank of Cadre. This is to ensure that our elites can work together strongly. Usually when it comes to teams, there are cases where people ended up hating one another, or being too much of a solitary unit to work together in tight knit... we wanted to minimize this, so I decided that a segregation is needed...
As much as we wanted to keep KIZNA as normal tightly knit, we also can't help but fill the need to expand. We want KIZNA to be beyond just a team of tight knit researcher, archeologist and adventuring friends. We want KIZNA to be strong enough to be declared a force that can sway people's opinion, to be team strong enough for us to protect our beloved Ys just by our presence alone..."
"That, and if we want to explore more of the Digital World we need more manpower. We need to dig more of the past iteration of Digital World, and we need to unearth a lot of mystery in this world. Thus, we need people who would love to work with us, to be part of KIZNA."
What would you say in this case to people who feel you're doing nepotism?
"I won't deny that we're picking cadres in base of nepotism, but even then, Cadres are nothing but mere title without people who helped us in the field. We're just the brain of the operatives. The unsung heroes in the field are those who works for KIZNA's ideal. And it's not like you can't fall out or get in the favor based on how well you performed... all in all this is how the organization I envisioned came to be."
Alright then, less personal question, what do you think changed ever since you hold the seat of KIZNA's leader?
"That's still personal you know?"
Ach, your snark sounded so much like Hikaru's at the moment! Either way please answer.
"I... I frankly still know nothing to be honest. Why are we here, why are we holding this much power, what is our mission... I have no idea. Who chose us, who made us partnered... all of that... there are still a lot of thing that I have no idea of and it frustrates me, but... I have a partner who I can trust."
"Aw, you're making me blush Yuuki!"
"That's why I think I can face the future with certainty that even though it'll be stormy, I have my partner with me."
Alright so, Hikaru... how are you doing?
"Good, thanks for asking. But I don't think that's exactly what you meant right?"
You caught on quick. So tell me, from the incomplete Digimon you are, dead for the first time then losing your power for the first time, deleted... and then backupped... how does it feel actually?
"The backup part was honestly weird, but I guess that's true that we're sort of backupped. How does that works I wonder? No idea, but either way, I'm here, I've returned... well... to be honest I only can count this as a miracle. But even then, I'm sure there are people who are traumatized with my disappearance. I only can apologize to them... And that's why I'm trying my best to take it easy. Death is... fearsome indeed, but there are nothing more fearsome than disappointing those that you love."
...Speaking of that, you're a father now, so what do you think of being a father?
"I've been a father for a long time now that I think of it... at least a year and so, which means seven years Digital World at the very least? It's honestly a journey that I find to be very special. At first I thought I just wanted adventure with Yuuki... but just... that, it felt a bit of monotonic you know? Not that it's bad and all but if you want to go on adventure with a friend, 'fun' must be there... unfortunately as we face dangers upon dangers, we slowly become jaded...
The presence of kids honestly made me felt like I got my sanity back. I can raise them up, I can train them my skills, I can guide them in this life, and eventually when I'm ready to call it quits, they would visit me from times to times, It's like... I'm making such strong bonds, and I love that. Being surrounded by my kids made me feel happy you know? As... a Digimon who borns fragmented, it felt like every single bonds that I made are like my treasure."
I see, so... what do you feel about the amnesia, is it better for Yuuki to be amnesic after all?
Looks like the Dorumon does not really ready to answer that question, but... Yuuki instead the one who answered it.
"There are things that you didn't notice how beautiful it is when you have a certain memory... and there are things sweeter when you experience it for the first time. Certainly, losing all my memories of Digital World has completely gone... it... probably was for the best. I have no idea what sort of adventure I had back then... I have no idea what sort of power I have... but even then, I feel like taking this in relaxing way is better... I got to made KIZNA because I believe in this pacifism route after all. The old Itou Yuuki probably isn't like this... and that's fine."
And so, if there is an incident where you somehow got your memory back, what do you think would happened?
"...Well, some things may change, but I believe I won't really change all that much... I... know that I'm not exactly the cleanist person around... and that's fine. If there is a sin, then I have to face it. No matter how bad, no matter how hard... we'll face it when it becomes problem. But for now, I'm enjoying this world's mystery in geeky way, and I'm completely fine with it, heh~"
"...Well, I guess he's really doing great so that's fine!" Hikaru quipped.
Right, so... returning back to the question... Hikaru, what do you fear in this life the most now?
"...Failing my kids, definitely. I failed Logy once by failing to come home for... years, on his side? That was a bit too much. That and also failing my own husband... Yeah... never again. I don't want that to happen again. It's already hard enough once... and if you ask me if I ever want to repeat that the second time, no. I don't want that. I.. I'm glad to be myself, thank you."
Does that... includes a recent problem?
"...Ah, you must meant Hilda..." Hikaru looked really... saddened. "...You see, I wanted to be there for Hilda, but everytime she... snapped at me, it felt like I failed her as a father. I... I have no idea how to act in front of her, really. Everytime I saw her, I felt half of my heart sunk. I felt.... I felt as if I completely failed all sort of checks as her father... How to say... everytime I tried my best to take care of her, it's met with hostility. When I try to ask her what's wrong, she kinda snapped... I... I think I messed up big time... so it's hard to face her."
But even then, do you love her?
"Isn't that obvious? There are no true father who does not love his children. We might not see eye to eye, but I really want to be able to communicate with her like before again. I was born with disability, invisible one, but it's a disability indeed. Perry born with one, and it's shown... I decided to treat her like how I always treat the rest, probably with a bit more coddling... but at the same time, I have no idea how it felt like for someone who was normal... ending up being incomplete. I guess that's why we can't see eye to eye... And honestly, I feel that part is my weakness. But even then, as a father, I'd like to tackle this problem eventually."
I see, that's admirable. Well, then, anything you would like to say to the audiences?
"Hmmm, lesseee... first of all, thank you for listening... If you have any sort of problem, remember that you're not alone I think. Sometimes you just need to talk to someone to actually clear your mind. You might say 'talking doesn't really solve anything', but probably all that you need is for someone to listen to you... and that's not wrong at all. But don't forget that you have to tackle your problem otherwise the problem will still persist. I'll do that with Hilda eventually, so wish me well."
And Yuuki?
"There are a lot of thing that I want to address, but basically, I'm still inexperienced, and even as a leader I'm a bit half baked. I'm not sure if the authority has gotten to my head or not but I hope my fellow members and friends can correct any of my behavior when it gone wrong. I might be a bit awkward, but it doesn't mean that I'm not up for criticism. Either way, I hope I could be a leader that you all can be proud of."
Well with that, thank you you two, hope that we can do this again sometime in the future!
