Halloween Mayhem (Johan, Shi, LJ)
Mar 8, 2023 4:03:14 GMT
Post by Johan Walker on Mar 8, 2023 4:03:14 GMT
(WARNING: The spoiler'd section of this post is not for the faint of heart, as it deals with seriously heavy subjects of depression, guilt, and very, very dark thoughts. Viewer discretion is advised.)
This was the point where all hell broke loose. While the fight was going on, both Johan and Dokamon would fail to react, resulting in the both of them just staring at the Shademon the entire time. Zero, meanwhile, noticed the two of them standing still like statues. Confused, he waved his hand in front of them both. "Johan? Robot? Hey, both of you, snap out of it!"
Of course, this wasn't working out for Zero, and Johan and Dokamon were both still unresponsive. Zero couldn't sit here forever with these two, he had to help fight at least somewhat. The Raidramon watched the fight between Lilith and LJ, the former of which firing magic fire attacks at LJ, her attention focused completely on him. Meaning she was completely distracted. Red energy cackled in Zero's mouth before he opened it up, firing a red energy sphere right at Lilith. "Degrading Blast!"
And then, the Shademon's gaze finally shifted over to Johan, as if he were able to just sense the intense amount of fear that was emanating from him. Johan's breathing only increased as he was finally able to take a step back, but not do much other than that. What the Shademon was able to read from the startled human only increased until Johan finally fell to his knees, the light in his eyes darkening slightly as Abaddon was now fully able to read Johan.
I remember it all like it was yesterday.
Dokamon and I were patrolling the halls of the school as part of our assignment for AEGIS. I was upset that Speed had told me I was condescending with my tutoring style... and even more upset that Dokamon agreed with him. But then, we encountered the Shademon. We saw him do something to this kid, and so we fought him. It grabbed onto Dokamon and he became unconscious. I panicked and ran, calling my colleagues to warn them about the threat. Then... I was grabbed, and everything turned black.
I found myself in a dark void, nothing but darkness for miles on end. I was walking through, and before I knew it, my little sister Ruby appeared. My brain told me that she was right there, even though she had been dead for almost a decade by this point.
I found myself in a dark void, nothing but darkness for miles on end. I was walking through, and before I knew it, my little sister Ruby appeared. My brain told me that she was right there, even though she had been dead for almost a decade by this point.
"Ruby!" I cry out. I immediately ran over to hug her as tightly as I could, tears running down my face like waterfalls. I thought that she had finally come back to me. Then, she asks me something that caused my heart to lodge up my throat:
"It's your fault."
Shocked, I let go of her, backing up a bit. "What do you mean, Ruby?"
"It's your fault that I'm dead."
I say nothing... it was something I had told myself for a long time, but it was never something I expected to ever hear Ruby herself say. "Wh-what?"
"You know exactly what happened. Mum and Dad wanted you to watch over me while Sophia was taken to a dance recital that we both refused to go to. We went to the park, you and I, and you just had to be the smart one, always making your six year old sister feel like nothing but an idiot, like she truly was the the youngest in the family, not being a tech prodigy like her brother or naturally athletic like her sister. When I exploded at you in the park, you could have talked to me like an older brother should, tried to calm me down and remind me that my jealousy was irrational."
"Ruby, we were only kids..."
Ruby's speech became more hate-filled as it went on. "But no... Johan Walker was too insulted by the fact that I called him an idiot, his ego as high as his IQ. He yelled at his younger sister to defend his stupid nerd pride. The fighting only gets worse and worse, until you have the audacity to slap me right in the face. You called me the worst sister ever, telling me that you wished I would just go away. Well, you got what you wanted, didn't you?"
"PLEASE, RUBY, STOP!" I begged to her. "I'm sorry I treated you that way! I was a jerk and a bully, I didn't mean it!"
She continued. "I ran into the street. I just wanted to go home, I didn't want to be around you anymore. Who knew city buses were so fast and come out of nowhere, huh? I flew right into another parked car... there was no chance of me living after that. All I can remember after that were the loud sounds of the ambulances..."
"PLEASE STOP!" I cried out once again.
Suddenly, more people stepped out of the darkness, joining Ruby with disapproving glares of their own. My mother, my father, and my sister Sophia.
My mother spoke first. "She was only six, Johan! Why didn't you look out for her better?! Why did you have to argue with her like that?!"
Then my father. "We had faith in you, Johan, and you completely betrayed our trust! How can we love someone who murdered his own sister, our little Ruby?!"
Then Sophia. "I never felt safe around you ever again. Once a sister-killer, always a sister-killer."
I fell to my knees, begging for whatever this nightmare was to stop. More figures stepped out of the darkness. Dokamon, Zero, Speed, Psych, and the other agents of AEGIS... and they each had something to say to me.
"You've never been a satisfactory partner, Johan."
"If you weren't my ticket into AEGIS, I would've tossed you away like an empty candy wrapper ages ago."
"It was your fault that my brother was taken by Grandmaster!"
"Statistically, the world would be far better off without you in it."
"I don't even know why you were accepted you into AEGIS. Why don't they just kick you out?"
"At least I'm not a condescending know-it-all like yourself."
I realized what this was... all of these things I was hearing my loved ones saying... they were all things I believed about myself. And how I believed others interpreted me. In an odd way, it felt relieving to feel like this wasn't all just something I made up in my head: all of my concerns were validated.
Dokamon walked up and punched me in the face, sending me back a few feet. I just laid there as everyone I knew and cared about surrounded me, all saying the same awful things to me in an attempt to make me feel even worse than I already had been feeling for the past seven years.
"YOU SUCK!" "YOU'RE THE WORST BROTHER EVER!" "YOU LET YOUR SISTER DIE!" "I WOULD STILL BE ALIVE IF YOU DIDN'T EXIST!" "WHY DON'T YOU DO US ALL A FAVOR AND DIE ALREADY?!" "KNOW-IT-ALL!" "WASTE OF SPACE!" "SISTER-KILLER!" "BROTHER-KILLER!" "FAMILY DESTROYER!"
This was the moment that I truly began to feel myself dying. All of this... it was my punishment for all of the sins I had caused in my life. I simply smiled as I fully embraced this as my just desserts for how awful I had been in life, how much of a waste of space I truly was, how much of a coward I had been and always would be. Then... I woke up. Alive. My shadow had returned. Friends and comrades surrounding myself and Dokamon, all seemingly happy that we had returned, that the Aberrant had been defeated. But I knew better... these reactions weren't genuine. Not even Dokamon's. There's no way they could've been. The feelings from the dream itself... they didn't go away.
Although I should be glad to be alive... something inside me still died that day: my will to keep on going. And that is what scares me... the fact that a Shademon made me realize that I simply wanted all of this anguish to end. That I... wanted to die.
"It's your fault."
Shocked, I let go of her, backing up a bit. "What do you mean, Ruby?"
"It's your fault that I'm dead."
I say nothing... it was something I had told myself for a long time, but it was never something I expected to ever hear Ruby herself say. "Wh-what?"
"You know exactly what happened. Mum and Dad wanted you to watch over me while Sophia was taken to a dance recital that we both refused to go to. We went to the park, you and I, and you just had to be the smart one, always making your six year old sister feel like nothing but an idiot, like she truly was the the youngest in the family, not being a tech prodigy like her brother or naturally athletic like her sister. When I exploded at you in the park, you could have talked to me like an older brother should, tried to calm me down and remind me that my jealousy was irrational."
"Ruby, we were only kids..."
Ruby's speech became more hate-filled as it went on. "But no... Johan Walker was too insulted by the fact that I called him an idiot, his ego as high as his IQ. He yelled at his younger sister to defend his stupid nerd pride. The fighting only gets worse and worse, until you have the audacity to slap me right in the face. You called me the worst sister ever, telling me that you wished I would just go away. Well, you got what you wanted, didn't you?"
"PLEASE, RUBY, STOP!" I begged to her. "I'm sorry I treated you that way! I was a jerk and a bully, I didn't mean it!"
She continued. "I ran into the street. I just wanted to go home, I didn't want to be around you anymore. Who knew city buses were so fast and come out of nowhere, huh? I flew right into another parked car... there was no chance of me living after that. All I can remember after that were the loud sounds of the ambulances..."
"PLEASE STOP!" I cried out once again.
Suddenly, more people stepped out of the darkness, joining Ruby with disapproving glares of their own. My mother, my father, and my sister Sophia.
My mother spoke first. "She was only six, Johan! Why didn't you look out for her better?! Why did you have to argue with her like that?!"
Then my father. "We had faith in you, Johan, and you completely betrayed our trust! How can we love someone who murdered his own sister, our little Ruby?!"
Then Sophia. "I never felt safe around you ever again. Once a sister-killer, always a sister-killer."
I fell to my knees, begging for whatever this nightmare was to stop. More figures stepped out of the darkness. Dokamon, Zero, Speed, Psych, and the other agents of AEGIS... and they each had something to say to me.
"You've never been a satisfactory partner, Johan."
"If you weren't my ticket into AEGIS, I would've tossed you away like an empty candy wrapper ages ago."
"It was your fault that my brother was taken by Grandmaster!"
"Statistically, the world would be far better off without you in it."
"I don't even know why you were accepted you into AEGIS. Why don't they just kick you out?"
"At least I'm not a condescending know-it-all like yourself."
I realized what this was... all of these things I was hearing my loved ones saying... they were all things I believed about myself. And how I believed others interpreted me. In an odd way, it felt relieving to feel like this wasn't all just something I made up in my head: all of my concerns were validated.
Dokamon walked up and punched me in the face, sending me back a few feet. I just laid there as everyone I knew and cared about surrounded me, all saying the same awful things to me in an attempt to make me feel even worse than I already had been feeling for the past seven years.
"YOU SUCK!" "YOU'RE THE WORST BROTHER EVER!" "YOU LET YOUR SISTER DIE!" "I WOULD STILL BE ALIVE IF YOU DIDN'T EXIST!" "WHY DON'T YOU DO US ALL A FAVOR AND DIE ALREADY?!" "KNOW-IT-ALL!" "WASTE OF SPACE!" "SISTER-KILLER!" "BROTHER-KILLER!" "FAMILY DESTROYER!"
This was the moment that I truly began to feel myself dying. All of this... it was my punishment for all of the sins I had caused in my life. I simply smiled as I fully embraced this as my just desserts for how awful I had been in life, how much of a waste of space I truly was, how much of a coward I had been and always would be. Then... I woke up. Alive. My shadow had returned. Friends and comrades surrounding myself and Dokamon, all seemingly happy that we had returned, that the Aberrant had been defeated. But I knew better... these reactions weren't genuine. Not even Dokamon's. There's no way they could've been. The feelings from the dream itself... they didn't go away.
Although I should be glad to be alive... something inside me still died that day: my will to keep on going. And that is what scares me... the fact that a Shademon made me realize that I simply wanted all of this anguish to end. That I... wanted to die.
Unlike Johan, Dokamon wasn't taken out by pure fear. In fact, he managed to snap himself out of it as soon as he realized that Johan had practically gone completely silent, on his knees and looking down at the ground.
"...Johan?" Dokamon asked as he jogged over to his partner, a look of great concern present on his face.
"Halloween... was her favorite holiday..." Johan muttered in a monotone voice.
Dokamon couldn't see any sign of life behind his eyes, as if Johan himself was "alive," but wasn't truly in the scene. The robotic Digimon looked around to see what the others were doing before looking up in fear at the Shademon himself, who would definitely be getting super-charged from Johan's sheer fear levels right at this point in time.
Zero uses "Degrading Blast" on Lilith while she is focusing on fighting someone else.
Zero uses "Degrading Blast" on Lilith while she is focusing on fighting someone else.
Moves
Degrading Blast: Zero fires a red sphere-shaped blast of red energy at a target. The target hit by this will suddenly find that something isn't quite right with them, causing their accuracy to be reduced by 30% for two posts. Cooldown is two posts.
Active Effects
-Degrading Blast (0/2)
Cooldowns
-Glitch Slash (0/3)
-Degrading Blast (0/2)